No Sparks!

Can or would you want to have a sexual relationship with out a sexual spark?

When you have been "out of the game" for over 5 years single life is a new experience. Either the variety and quality of men has improved or I have?

So at the age of 24 Im now venturing out into the world with open eyes. So many men but with most of them their seems to be this strange disconnection. Was I in a relationship for so long that almost every man will default into friend mode? I am a flirt, I cannot deny it but their are so few actual sparks. I have only encountered one spark, an amazing breath taking and mind blowing spark but now is not the time to write about that. I am writing about my non sparks as their are many more of them. 

I recently went out with a man whom I refer to as the cute and persistent photography boy. We met casually at an art show. He is incredibly smart, witty, easy on the eyes and was quite flirtasious. I would be lying if I said I was not interested in him. Who wouldn't be? 

So we hooked up and hit my new fave hangout, Black Honey. We joked about the lack of edginess in green tea as I sipped on a carmel latte. He was beautiful and I hung on every word he said. We exchanged stories about what we did with our lives and where we wanted to take them. 

We decided to go for a walk and I required warmer clothing, so we headed to my flat and I soon found myself alone with him in my room. As I gazed into his eyes I hoped and wished for some sort of spark, something that would make me want to peel his clothing off and explore his body. I wanted to desire him, I wanted to want to know what his lips tasted like. What is wrong with me? Am I broken? Did my lust nob somehow come loose? Bah! 

So we had a great time, a very vanilla and platonic time. I don't feel this is a lost situation tho, I don't cringe when I say he will make a great friend!