For me having a dream that becomes reality
is like waking up and having coffee in the morning,
it just kindof happens.
Now to have a dream that doesn't come to fruition, thats Weird!
I think this topic kindof creeps most people out so I don't talk to my friends about it. Their are a few close friends who I can trust but otherwise their is no point other than them thinking im strange and I hate being called strange. I think the words Normal and Strange should not exist for the fact that people put a negative light on strange and weird. I dont like standing in that light.
So besides shying away from the negative light i am really just not good at analyzing my dreams. I make mistakes all the time so I just stopped and know that when it happens It will click.
When I was younger I had a dream where my father was driving an old truck and he was in an accident but their were no other cars. His heart exploded.
When I woke up the next morning my mother was crying, her dad had been diagnosed with colon cancer and I thought that this dream would indicate a father figure and that perhaps this is what it meant. I was completely off target with that one. A few weeks later my Grandfather on my Fathers side died of a massive heart attack.
My last dream is bothering me something fierce tho. 2 weeks from tomorrow will be my 1 year anniversary and my dream surrounds it.
In my dream I received a bouquet of flowers from my husband. Their were daisies, roses and babies breath all wilting or dead.
The flowers came from a shop assembled by John Does Wife.A sealed note was attached to the flowers in a woman's hand writing but in my husbands words. It was written in detail outlining all of my insecurities, physical and mental. It stated how much he loathed me and explained in meticulous detail every little thing I did wrong. What bothers me the most about the note is the amount of times he called me "Useless" in it. It is his favorite term for me, always has been. When something like that is repeated to you constantly for 6 years how can you feel you are anything but?
The note was like the last 6 years of my life compiled onto a piece of paper. It hurt, I don't want to remember that part of the dream but it serves a purpose... im just not sure what that purpose is yet.
As hurtful as the first part of this dream was their was a silver lining. When I saw me, I saw me with a tattoo on the back of my left calf. It was a Valentine heart but just the outline and the outline was written. It was beautiful.
I woke up and started to search for it, I figured I had seen it somewhere. Well after spending Hours in front of the computer looking at ever tattoo site and googling every possible search string I found nothing. It does not exist YET!
The quote is by Dick Sutphen. When I read it I had tears in my eyes because is this not what everyone wants and yet so few of us get to have.
"Love me without fear, Trust me without questioning, Need me without demanding, Want me without restrictions, Accept me without change, Desire me without inhibitions."
I do not know what all of the dream means yet, the one thing I do know is that I will be getting the ink in the next 2 weeks. This will be perhaps the most meaningful tattoo I will ever have.
I do not know what all of the dream means yet,
the one thing I do know is that I will be getting the ink in the next 2 weeks.
This will be perhaps the most meaningful tattoo I will ever have.
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